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All My SPN Feels

Hello, my name is Lauren and I am a 24-yrs-young illustrator and this is my SPN fanblog. I reblog anything that catches my fancy, but I also write meta and enjoy drawing trueforms for both angels and demons. If you got a question or want to say hi, hit me up and let me know. I don't bite~
Aug 28 '14



Inspired by this.


19,887 notes (via bakasara & rockandrollchick)Tags: well shit rofl spn

Jul 16 '14

6,986 notes (via jackfuckingmccoy & spookydeamon)Tags: this is literally why i dont watch the show anymore i started seeing it in s9 and stopped immediately if they werent going there in season 9 there really isn't a reason for me to continue to hope for it anymore not when i can play a game and get the ship i want whenever i want the end spn wank queerbaiting

Jul 14 '14


(used the username Puppy-Chow here because that’s my handle pretty much everywhere else)

Hey guys, it’s that time of year again! Commissions are open and ready to go, with plenty of openings for everyone! If I fill up, however, I will make a note here on if they are closed or not.

Commissions Currently: OPEN!

Some notes for those looking for my work:

$20 Icons:

  • Painted rendered profiles at 500x500 pixels. Great for any website or icon usage!

$25 Character Sketch:

  • Cleaned-up sketch, with grayscale added for extra depth
  • Great for concept work or for fast, cheap quality linework of a character
  • 1000x800 pixels, 300 dpi. Awesome for printing!
  • +$5 for each new character (Max 3 characters per Client)

$35-$40 Refined Lineart

  • Detailed line work, ready and primed for coloring underneath.
  • 8”x10”, 300 dpi.
  • Full-body lineart of a single character.
  • +$10 for another character (Max 2 per client)
  • Prices may vary for extra detail.

$60 Colored and Textured Linework

  • Beautiful colors and textures bring the linework to life!
  • 8”x10”, 300 dpi for seamless printing.
  • +$15 for extra characters (Max 2 per client)
  • Prices may vary slightly due to difficulty.

$70+ Rendered Character Paintings

  • Gorgeous paintings of your characters!
  • 8”x10”, 300 dpi, no background.
  • +15 for extra characters (Max 2 per rendering)
  • Prices can vary due to detail and difficulty

$100+/$15 per-hour Full-Scale Illustration

  • Fully Rendered paintings with background and characters!
  • 8”x10”, up to 11”x14”, 300 dpi, Printer-ready.
  • Up to 3 characters per image.
  • Prices can vary greatly depending on background, characters, and difficulty. May ask on an hourly basis of $15 per hour.

You can contact me at (tumblr tends to eat posts so please contact me by email!) if interested in ANY of my commissions! And as a last note, please check my Terms of Service before sending any money or a commission request. I am also currently USD only folks! Have a great day, and thanks in advance!

Hey guys, I know I don’t use this blog much anymore, but I could really use the exposure and let’s face it: I have almost 2,000 followers here still.

I’m taking summer commissions, and I could really use the help. I’m fast, reliable, and I love to work with folks to bring their visions to life. If you have any questions, feel free to send them my way. If you can’t afford, a simple reblog is enough to gain exposure and help me find clients. Thanks for listening doods, and stay cool, SPN fandom!

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Jul 4 '14







Andy Blake, better known on Tumblr as andythanfiction, is not at all what he seems. Presenting himself as a friendly, enthusiastic, artful member of the supernatural fandom, Andy would appear to be harmless and even comes off as extremely cool and likable. This could not be farther from the truth. Andythanfiction is a harmful, dangerous cult leader. Yes, for real. Cults still exist. I know, I was shocked, as well.

My intent in writing this post is twofold:

  1. Warn and protect the friends I made at DC Con
  2. Warn and protect the cast of Supernatural

I met Andythanfiction at the most recent Creation Ent. Supernatural Convention, in Washington DC, where he not only won the cosplay contest for Best Castiel, but also donned an extremely good Kevin Tran cosplay (pictured above) for most if not all of Friday and Sunday. He was delightful. He was impressive. He actually got Mark Sheppard to use props in a photograph. I liked him.

Earlier today, I remembered where I’d heard his name before. It wasn’t, as I’d suspected, from reading his Destiel meta. No. It was something far more sinister.

I remembered reading an article about a man who liked to flit from fandom to fandom, become popular and well liked, and slowly begin to draw in a “posse”. A group of friends. A following. And then proceed to use them,  leech them of their money and identity, take what he wanted from them, and when they began to catch wise, dump them out of his “protection” with no money, no friends outside the cult, and no idea of who they were without him.

I thought to myself that it couldn’t have been the Andy I met. And then I checked my blog. Not, as you’ll notice, this blog. And I found the post I’d been thinking of. I will not link it here, as to not endanger the author of the original ask post. They’re a dear friend of mine and the entire point of this post is to keep the people I love safe. But, I will copy the text of it, below.

Anonymous asked: who is that andy guy? what did he do? i never heard of him

I included a link in that post — though I’d say it’s probably best that if you haven’t heard of him, not to trouble yourself with reading into it. Unless you like reading about sociopaths and cult leaders. In that case, it might be considered an interesting read.

Suffice it to say he is a well-known destiel meta writer on tumblr and years ago he did some very awful things in another fandom, and I am worried for my own little SPN fandom. I am also vaguely worried about Misha, but I don’t think that one’s a very valid worry. You can read the information in the linked post for more information.

Go on and read the linked post. I’ll wait. While you’re there, feel free to click on the other posts that one links to. Trigger Warning for gaslighting, brainwashing, sexual assault, sexual abuse, cults, and emotional manipulation. If I have forgotten to warn for something, please do message me and I will append this paragraph.

The above post was written in October of 2013. At that point, Andy had not gone to any Supernatural conventions, and was still in the process of assimilating himself into our fanmily.

He has now begun to escalate, as he has done before. At this last convention, he was buddying up to Osric, and telling fans that Osric gave him his phone number. This is yet to be confirmed, but if he has, the situation is even more troubling.

Andy has been working on gaining the trust of not only Osric but of many fans of the show. One way he earns people’s trust is by playing the victim card. He then uses that trust to victimize others. If you doubt that he could, then he has probably gotten to you.

Because he’s likable. He really is. You may read the post above and think, “Wow, what a monster, I bet he’s actually really creepy.”

He is not. He is very good at what he does. If he was noticeably creepy, even to one’s intuition, people would not trust him, and he would not be a threat.

If you met him at the convention a couple of weeks ago, you may already like him. You may already consider him a friend. You may even be going to his Season Nine party, or traveling with him to San Diego con.

Do. Not.

Even if you tell yourself that you do not and will not trust him, do not go near him. Keep. Your. Distance. He will weasel his way past your guard just as soon as you’re not looking. He will find the cracks in your defenses and slip silently in through them and the next thing you know, he’ll be inducting you into his Posse and you’ll be telling yourself that he really isn’t so bad, and then I fear it will be too late for you.

He WILL play the victim. He WILL say that this and all other posts exposing him are unfair and ruining his life. He WILL refuse to own up that he is only ruining his OWN life by continuing to act this way and follow these patterns of behavior.  And if he DOES own up it will only be to say that he’s changed now. But do you see how his “friends” call themselves his “posse” now? How he refers to them as a herd?

By the way, none of this is to blame any of his friends. It is extemely important to remember is that they are not foolish people. They’re intelligent, good people. Do not think that by being “smarter” or “more careful” than them that you can avoid the harm that Andy inflicts on the people around him.

The ONLY way to avoid harm is to stay away from him. If you do know him, immediately do everything in your power to cut ALL contact with him.

Spread the word.

I’ve debated posting something like this before, actually, because I’ve seen some of the SPN fans on my dash reblogging things from andythanfiction, and frankly it’s made me kind of nervous.  It does seem to me like nothing has ever escalated quite like Bit of Earth did, but the patterns do persist and the more I think about it, the more it seems like the main thing preventing that kind of escalation is that people know who Andy is, and are aware of the kind of things he’s pulled in the past, and have their eyes open.  So I’m reblogging this.

You know, follow who you’re going to, and reblog what you like, but…  Man, just be careful who you trust.  Okay?  Just…  just be careful. 

MANY things have escalated as much as the BoE scandal did. The perception that BoE is the pinnacle of Andy’s crap is simply because it was so public and there were celebrities involved. But what about the YEARS of severe emotional and psychological abuse enacted on Abbey Stone AFTER BoE? The long list of subsequent victims he dragged into his cult - not to mention the young woman WHO WAS KILLED - that are denied real acknowledgement of what they went through because everyone remains focused on BoE.  It’s really important to talk about him and spread the word and maybe that ongoing discussion keeps him from throwing big, public events like BoE… but that doesn’t mean he isn’t constantly and consistently manipulating and victimising vulnerable young people - mainly women - and devastating their lives. It’s all happening in private, behind the scenes. This is easily just as horrific and appalling as BoE. More so, in my opinion. 

This is vitally important to reblog, especially as I’m sure many of his current fans/posse were too young to be a part of the LotR fandom during that first large clusterfuck.

And as the person above me said, that incident is well known because of the celebrities involved. What’s not well known is how many lives have been destroyed because of this man.

If you still think this guy is an okay dude, then I HIGHLY recommend you read Abbey Stone’s posts on the abuse she endured, and the long road to recovery. Then you can ask yourself if you want to risk that happening to you, or to someone you love and care about.

If he just wants to write fanfiction, then fine, he can do that, no one can actually throw him out of fandom—but the fact that he has a group of fans, many of whom seem to be young, is very alarming. The people who are spending time with him, becoming enamored with him, etc., need to know what has happened to other people who have cared for him.

If you do shit like this guy has done, then you shouldn’t get an easy pass into the lives of others. His past should be broadcast, loud and clear, whenever he enters a new fandom, because people should know with whom they are becoming involved. The protection of the many far outweighs the feelings of a single abuser and cult leader. 

This scumbag is banking on no one remembering his antics from 2003 and before. But, well, some of us have been part of online fandom for even longer, and we remember reading all about his shit when it went down in the LotR fandom.

Stay safe, Supernatural friends.

I sure as fuck remember him. And the surreally disturbing experience of seeing, ten years later, Abbey Stone’s extraordinary series of posts linked above, on her experiences surviving the cult abuse that so many of us had thought of — if we thought about it at all — as some kind of especially dramatic “fandom wank” incident.

This man is a predator. People should know.

I know other people may be immune to it, or unaware, but I will let my followers know that I got MAJOR ASS CREEPY CREEP VIBES off this guy the MOMENT I saw his first post online here on tumblr. I tried to follow him for his meta but his blog was so full of virulent trauma and wank that I couldn’t follow him any longer; he stank of all the wrong bits of everything. Didn’t help that I tried to correct him on a post and instead he sent me a very hate-filled “this is why you are wrong” reply, to which I corrected him and simply got a “that’s your opinion” back. Hmmm, a cheery guy. It wasn’t until after I stopped following him that I read up on all the old and terrible shit he had gotten into, and I had read about how that young woman had died.

FOLLOWERS. DON’T ASSOCIATE WITH THIS USER. Please, I don’t want anyone to get hurt or embezzled for stupid reasons. Remember that a lot of these “creepy (I have a strong creep radar) guys” in the media are usually charismatic and draw people to them. This is how rapists and cultists and con artists work; they wouldn’t be good at what they do if they couldn’t persuade those around them. Just REMEMBER TO BE CAREFUL. Follow him, like his posts, whatever, but BE CAREFUL. Seriously. I hate that this guy is still in the fandom and I hope he sees people catching wise and leaves as fast as he came.

17,409 notes (via genshi-groudon & protectyourfanmily)Tags: andythanfiction for ts andythanfiction tw supernatural fandom i'm not in this fandom any more but this is important REALLY IMPORTANT so please be aware that this guy has done some shit over and over again

Jun 4 '14


(Source: some-people-call-it-tragic)

44,766 notes (via bakasara & some-people-call-it-tragic)Tags: omg Cas cutie I UNDERSTOOD THAT REFERENCE him and capt america should have a reference party see who knows the most wuld make cap feel so much better destiel castiel rofl

Jun 1 '14

(Source: castiels-dean)

6,711 notes (via bakasara & castiels-dean)Tags: never over it crying forever over purgatory destiel season 8 the best season

May 30 '14





Meme is a stupid word.

It’s especially stupid when people mispronounce it.


jesus christ we really do have a gif for everything…

51,557 notes (via bakasara & conkersradfurday)Tags: SHINING EXAMPLE OF THE MULTITUDE OF GIFS IN THE SPN FANDOM one of the proud achievements rofl spn gifs they are everywhere and for everything

May 26 '14


Season 9 - Who cares where happiness comes from.

22,468 notes (via bakasara & supernaturalapocalypse)Tags: wow dean try to be less obvious holy jeez season 9 the best partso f this season were when dean and cas were together ngl that last dean gif tho kills me destiel

May 23 '14

Misha was shocked to learn people KNEW Dean was going to become a demon


Oh, you sweet summer child.

(Source: littlehollyleaf)

1,402 notes (via sarasarai & littlehollyleaf)Tags: oh misha oh hon jibcon rofl demon!dean

May 21 '14

coming this fall


coming this fall

77,619 notes (via neven-ebrez & novakian)Tags: yes omg let the jokes begin i have seen all te gifs next season might just be pretty freaking awesome dean demon!dean sam rofl