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I was at JIB4 & now I understood: COCKLES IS REAL AND NOTHING HURTS! Here is my story)
Warning: this post is for Cockles-lovers only – for those of them who believe ) The rest may go home. I saw it with my own eyes that Cockles is real and I don’t care if anyone thinks otherwise. If someone simply told me about it I would shrug my shoulders too, but I’m used to believe my own eyes and my gut feeling.As for now I’m sorting through my photo-video-impressions, but I feel an obligation to write about the Cockles that I witnessed)It was on the last day of Jibcon, about 40 minutes before Misha and Jensen’s panel. By that time I was through with autographs and photo-ops and I decided to accompany my friend E-Katy to her Misha’s autograph – I just wanted to take an extra look at this wonderful man.We come to the autograph room, E-Katy takes her place in the line, and I’m standing right beside Fantasmagory who is there just for the same purpose as myself. The staff ask us why we are not in the line and I explain that we’re here with a girl who doesn’t speak English, so we’re going to interpret for her.At this very moment Jensen, who is at the table nearby, finishes with his autographs, gets up together with Daniela and heads for Misha’s table. E-Katy has already taken Misha’s autograph, and an Italian girl gets out a huge book to be signed and puts it on the table in front of Misha. The three of us are huddled together in about 2 meters from the table beside several demons who are queued towards Misha. So we have a perfect vantage point ) Actually we weren’t waiting for anything, we just wanted to drool at those two together, and as for myself, I thought Jens was about to walk past Misha behind his back and turn into the meet-and-greet room. So Jens approaches Misha from behind, leans heavily with his chest on Misha’s back and covers Misha’s hands with his own, you know like someone’s sitting and you’re hugging them from behind. We’re like, WTF? – it’s all happening in a couple meters from us… Then Jensen takes the marker out of Misha’s hand, still lying on top of him with all his weight and almost pressing Misha into the table – Misha even said “ouch”! – so obviously Jens was very heavy on him Jensen signs the book, still squishing Misha down with his body, then he rises a little, digs his nose into Misha’s hair and draws it like that from side to side a couple of times, rubbing his face against Misha’s hair. Our jaws are dropping, eyes basically popping out, and our feet seem frozen to the floor. The Italian girl who also sees all of it – by the look on her face, she’s feeling much the same as us – wide-eyed, mouth open. She’s looking round her, obviously in search of her friend. The demons are in the line, they’re puffing at each other’s napes so they cannot see any of this. As a result, only five people are the witnesses – the three of us and the two Italian girls in front of the table.Jensen goes on with his caresses. I guess he wrote something funny in the book, or he simply wanted to apologize for snatching the marker from Misha’s hand. Holding Misha’s chin with one hand, Jens presses his cheek against Misha’s. Like, sorry, I’m so sorry!.. Then Jens backs off a little, making a step back, and Misha’s looking up at him. Then they smile simultaneously, and Jens has those crinkles around his eyes, he’s literally shining. Misha’s also shining, and we’re almost swept off by the affection and tenderness in their eyes. For about half a minute they’re just looking into each other’s eyes, and, as they say, the whole world has stopped around them and only they two exist. Very meaningful glances, so much intimacy. They didn’t give a damn about us, about the staff and the Universe in general. There were literally hearts in their eyes. It couldn’t be rendered in words, even in a video – all that chemistry between them, all that affection OMG!Then Jens turns off, still smiling, and he’s shining like a new dime when he and Daniela walk past us towards the exit (i.e., he hasn’t been going to the meet-and-greet room, he’s come up to Misha on purpose! Misha’s table wasn’t on his way; he turned to Misha because he just couldn’t miss the opportunity!). And Misha lowers his eyes with a smile and starts signing the book. And here our shame begins as we’re just done.We three turn back like we’re one, then make something that can be described as three awkward steps and then we just hurl out of the room (i.e., Misha can see us and he’s perfectly aware why this three morons are clattering on their high-heels. We stop only in the hall, look at each other and then SQUEE!!! (Which of course can be heard from the autograph-room).The staff are gaping at us like we’re lost our minds. E-Katy and I, we realize that we must relate all of this to Swoon. And we must do it ASAP. Then I had a chance to learn from my own experience what Motor ass means. We (still in high-heels) rattle to the panel room, and stuff open the doors for us (usually they ask to show them the pass). We rush into the room, run to our places where we land and start yelping into Swoon’s ear, “Swoonie, Swoonie! There’s Cockles there!” But she’s meditating at Brock’s panel, so she hisses back, “Hush!” We again, “Swoonie, Swoonie!” She, “So what do you have there, Cockles? What Cockles? Here’s Brock”. And she turns off, totally indifferent. You know, it’s rather inconvenient, impossible even to sit quiet when one has a burr under one’s saddle. So, as soon as we understand that Swoonie is a lost case, we take off and head for the exit again, fly out the doors (poor staff) and just run with no aim, for the sake of running. On our way we meet the girls from the groop Vkontakte, then Kid and Giovedi, and then Winchester. We tell everyone everything that happened (shouting and squee-ing applied), then we rush to the room where I left my phone to charge. We dial up Kim_lm and RED, squee and demand that they write some entries in their blogs right away. All in all, I just didn’t expect that we, the three well-balanced grown-up women as we are, could be so bashed by the affection between two men. It’s such a pity that using camera wasn’t a possibility – Daniela was standing right there and we would’ve been kicked from the room immediately. And it’s a pity that one cannot have tiny cameras inside one’s own eyes. It would’ve been a coming-out. Do I have to add that Misha got the bracelet on his arm somewhere between the autograph room and the panel? And that Misha’s panel was delayed for twenty minutes? The staff were puttering about and shrugging their shoulders, and Matt on the scene had to entertain the audience as Cockles got stuck somewhere else. I want to say that what I saw wasn’t interaction between two friends, it was between two lovers. Jensen has a crash on Misha – do not believe when someone says that Jens fends Misha off, that he’s cold to him and is being dismissive of him in general. Jensen adores him. And how is it possible not to love Misha? – Actually, he’s very nice, humble, self-conscious, very pleasant man – one can fall in love with him heels over head, especially a top like Jensen. BTW, Swoon officially asked to say for her that JENSEN IS A TOP and that she doesn’t doubt it now that she’s seen the way they interact with each other (as for me, I never had any doubt).But what stunned us the most was that affection, that love that was streaming from them both while they were staring at each other.All in all, COCKLES IS REAL AND NOTHING HURTS! And I’m not going to persuade those who don’t believe. I saw enough! Now I believe that Jared actually whispered to a fan that he knows about Cockles. And that he actually posted the photo with wine glasses, titling it “this is what you’ve been waiting for”. And many other things. I’ll be updating this entry as all I’ve been capable of for now is this hectic report.](http://24.media.tumblr.com/fe76d49e0e278b4b0f0661f139f26a12/tumblr_mmxgo7v61l1s4jicxo1_500.jpg)
but i just don't get it, why do you guys keep saying that the supernatural/human parallels didn't have a resolution? they had one, I think it all was foreshadowing the crypt scene in 8.17, but of course without the romantic element. They just put romantic couples instead of friendship ones as parallels because romance is clearly more powerful and people love love stories. Or maybe they weren't even parallels to Destiel, just random, unintentional romantic couples. And besides, why make (1)
spn beings/human couples as parallels/foreshadowing when TPTB knew Cas was gonna become human? it just doesn’t make sense. And also, there weren’t many parallels anyway, 9 you said? well, of all them, I’m sure only 3-4 were actual intentional parallels, and they were all IMO foreshadowing the crypt scene in 8.17. But I digress. All I’m saying is thatthese parallels were either 1. paralleling friendship Destiel (in 8.17, aka already resolved), 2. because TPTB like to write love stories, 3. unintentional/not foreshadowing/not parallels, 4. Megstiel, Sam/Dean or Dean/Benny parallels, or paralleling a possible supernatual being love interest for Dean or Sam in s9, 5. just queerbaiting/fanservice to make shippers believe Destiel would go canon when it won’t, 6. Destiel intention but network interference/change of mind, 7. Bad writing.
Great point, anon, and I certainly agree up to a point. I do think that quite a few creature/human parallels were meant to be for the crypt scene, much in the same way that I think 8x06 was meant to be a parallel to the crypt scene. Charlie and Gilda are a clear example of a direct parallel to the crypt scene, with Dean “breaking the spell” on Cas and helping free him of Naomi’s control.
But I also think that a lot of the parallels are supposed to parallel the relationship Dean and Cas already have. For example, I think Benny and Andrea was a direct parallel to Cas in Season 4 and 5, where he denounces his creator and turns to Dean, and “sees something in humanity”. It’s possible that Cas didn’t do it out of romantic love, but there was definitely something incredibly strong there- why else would he have rebelled and put himself on Heaven’s crapper list?
Other parallels (Portia and James stick out here, as well as Prometheus and Hayley and everything surrounding that) are meant to give insight on what “could be”; this is the potential outcome that may occur between Dean/Cas if given the right circumstances. There was a potential “happy ending”; there was a potential “sacrifice yourself”. These were all “potentials” on what could happen, much like 8x06 in my above meta was a potential “what could have been” for the crypt scene.
So while yeah, I think the parallels are still “open” (I don’t think they entirely are, but people see them as “empty” or “unfulfilled” because Destiel didn’t happen), I also see them as partially closed. I think the open part is leading us to the “same-sex” couple stuff, where it kind of transitioned with Charlie’s storyline, then there was Aaron, and now the two men at the bar. Just like Season 7 transitioned into these supernatural/human pairings, I’m wondering if we may be seeing more same-sex pairings in Season 9 as well.
I do want to say that I don’t think this can easily be chalked up to bad writing, queerbaiting, or the network backing out. I do think it could be paralleling Sam/Amelia, Meg, as well as non-romantic Dean/Cas. I don’t think it is unintentional;, but they could be seen as that and the writers just liking love stories. There are many MANY ways to read those parallels; my way is not law and I don’t ask people to agree with it entirely. ;) But I definitely see what you are saying, and I certainly agree to an extent. It will all make for a very interesting Season 9, indeed!
Cas as Dean’s “Potential Love Interest”
Sure, ask away! The easy answer to this is simply that I think Dean is bi, because I don’t think his interest in women was ever a fake or forced thing. I think he has become disinterested in women as sexual partners or romantic interests however, and has shown for a long time a decreasing want to be with them (to the point where he is outright denying them, even though he was initially flirtatious).
Dean is a funny guy. And there is meta upon meta better than mine about his potential sexual orientation(this one is my personal favorite). But to call him 100% gay would be really incongruous with who he is, just like calling him 100% straight would also be incongruous.
I consider Castiel a potential love interest (esp. in canon) because if Dean gets over his issues with his identity and sexuality (which he has made great leaps this season towards accepting), he may see that Castiel really is there for him, and is the best he’s gonna get (and when it’s an angel of the Lord, fallen or not, that’s pretty good, imo). He’s the closest friend Dean has, and now that he’s human, he’ll be with the boys a lot more, showing that 1) he can’t just keep running away from them and 2) they can work through the issues and feelings that have been stewing between him and Dean for the last 2-3 years (in the show). At this point in the show, there’s no reason to engage Dean in a new female romantic interest, not when all of Season 8 and a good chunk of Season 7 was devoted to explicitly showing us how much Dean is just NOT into women that way anymore. Does he enjoy them? Sure he does! He flirts openly and likes to be playful with female figures, but he has shown time and time again the he’s not looking to “tap that” and have even close to a one-night stand. But it is clear that, decreased libido from PTSD or not(I can’t currently find the meta I’m thinking of for this), he’s still a sexual creature, and he still enjoys the idea of something physical, something real. It’s just that his attention is shifting and he’s trying to figure out why.
He states he wants to be but can’t with Ellie in Trial and Error. He stutters and stops around the idea of potentially hanging with Aaron. He shifts his entire body at the image of a cleaned-up Cas. Not to mention how many times he’s looked Cas up and down, and when he’s happy with Cas at the beginning of the season, he’s hardly more than a foot away from him. And not even mentioning romantic/sexual relationships, Dean has been hugging everyone like crazy this season; at least 3 times more than all the other seasons combined.
Dean is physical. He wants that connection with someone. And it’s obvious that he’s only sharing any kind of physical connection with the people he already knows and loves. So of course he’ll soon want to be closer with Cas, now that he’s around. I wouldn’t be surprised if now that Cas is going to essentially be living with the boys at the bunker (because where else will he go) we’re going to be seeing more “peach fuzz” moments, aka more touching, poking, nudging, grabbing, little-to-no-personal-space, stuck-like-glue moments. Now that Dean is going to have Cas in a position where Cas can’t really leave, do you really think Dean is going to let that go? We saw how upset he was at the end of the season with Cas’s constant back-and-forth. He was so angry that he didn’t talk to him for a whole episode, prompting Cas to go out and try to shop for all of Dean’s favorite things to make up for it. So do I think Dean and Cas are going to be closer next season? Oh yeah. A lot, lot, lot closer.
And since Cas is already so close to Dean, and Dean clearly has a physical need to be close to those he cares about, and they have mutual interests that they can talk about and share, plus all the emotional and spiritual intimacy that comes with saving each other’s asses from Hell/Purgatory/Apocalypse/etc., there’s a perfect brew for them to finally sit down and really express how they feel and move forward with their relationship. But it’s only going to happen if they can sit down and talk it out. They need some moments to themselves where they can really be frank with each other. It’s something that Dean and Cas both need; up until this point, all season, they have been constantly interrupted and halted from their more emotional and heart-felt comments. They need to spend some time in the bunker, just the two of them, and talk it out.
And I think we’ll see that somewhere mid next season, perhaps, if not sooner or later, depending on what the writers have in mind. But whatever it is, it should be realistically resolved in a timely manner. I’m expecting some tension, which will ease (like it always does between them),they’ll talk things out, and Dean will do the “touchy feely” things, small things that Cas might not have noticed before but now that he’s human, he does notice them, which may or may not gradually escalate from there. The biggest issue of course with Dean and Cas’s relationship is that it has to feel organic from the prospect of the casual viewer, so just like everything else, it’s baby steps. But if the same-sex romance parallels get more frequent this next season, well, I think we all know where they will be going from there. ;)
Hello! First off, since I haven't said this yet, your trueform Cas was absolutely gorgeous! <3 Also, I had a question about the finale. In Clip Show, Dean had some major trust issues with Cas, but they seemed completely gone in the finale. I took it as Dean having accepted that Cas doesn't trust him and doesn't want to stay with him (hence the bittersweet "ET goes home" comment). Not sure if I'm just making excuses for the writers though, so I just wanted to hear your thoughts on this. Thanks!
Hmmm, I don’t really think his bitterness left entirely when Cas first showed up, actually but I DO think it dissipated over the course of the episode. There’s this thing with Dean where he can never really “stay” mad at Castiel; no matter what Cas has done, he’s always found a way to forgive him in an unspoken manner.
Now! Back to the question: When Cas first shows up, remember that Dean hasn’t seen him for oh, about a day I’d say. He left, Dean was annoyed, and as soon as Cas shows up, saying he needs Dean’s help, he jumps a little and angrily tells him “Little busy Cas, take a number”, basically brushing him off completely. He doesn’t want Cas there, not when he has Crowley tied up and about to blow. He’s very reluctant and I don’t think he trusted Cas fully, but he never really lost complete trust in Cas; he was just upset and angry that he left in Clip Show; he was being emotional about Cas not being there. He doesn’t leave with Cas until after Sam insists anyway. Once Sam says it’s okay though, he takes that as enough of a reason and leaves with Cas.
And he helps Cas. He tries to help him see reason. Don’t attack the Cupid, “Talk first, stab later okay?”. Don’t just outright attack Naomi, Dean tells him. Dean knew something was off when Kevin was on the other line who had never lied to him before and Castiel who is getting fed information from an angel he doesn’t know or trust. But he knew it wasn’t Castiel that he didn’t trust; it was who was on the other end: Metatron. And when Naomi appeared crying and confirmed this, it was Dean’s worst fear- that Cas had been tricked and it was all gonna end badly. No matter what, Dean didn’t stop caring about Cas, making sure he made the right move, making sure he was okay.But he also knew that Cas was feeling resolute in this. He needed to let Cas go; to do what Cas needed to do. And that bittersweet “ET goes home” line is Dean knowing that well, maybe Cas won’t come back after this one. Maybe he’ll be gone for good. And instead, I think Cas knew he was coming back all along, but never had the chance to say it.
That’s also why I think the first thing Dean said when he saw those angels falling (because he knew right away, I do not doubt) he said “No, Cas!” because he knew something terrible had happened; this wasn’t what Cas wanted, nobody wanted this. They were supposed to get the angels back INTO Heaven, not expelled. I also think it’s incredibly poignant that Dean screamed out the name “Castiel”, not just Cas. He hardly ever calls Cas, “Castiel”; he wasn’t just calling for his brother but for him too. He needed to know Cas was alright because who knew what would have happened to him at that point.
So no, I think the writers knew exactly what they were doing and were in-tune with Dean’s feelings. It wasn’t that Dean had trust issues with Cas in 8.22, it was that he was hurting because Cas kept leaving, and Dean couldn’t take it anymore. The viewers can’t even take it anymore! So of course he had issues with that; but that wasn’t the point. Cas also DID come back to Dean in 8.23, and that was significant. Especially because Cas never says WHY he needs Dean; it’s almost like he just needed Dean to come along so he could have back-up, so he wouldn’t be alone or wouldn’t make a dumb move. He never needed Dean to do and talking (“It seems that this will involve… talking to people”), he didn’t need Dean to fight anything for him (“No killing this time”), he just Needed Dean. For no other reason than to have Dean come along. To be there. And I think that says a lot, and I think Dean understood that. And that’s why he went with Cas (with Sam’s blessing of course).
Because damn if they don’t need each other.
Wow I picked up a lot of new followers since last night. It’s always so nice to see new faces.
Hi guys how’s it going. I’m Lauren, I write meta and I draw trueforms. I think ya’ll are fantastic no matter what I promise. If you ever wanna chat I’m as open as a trenchcoat on a stripper.
I’m gonna go back to painting falling angels and disintegrating wings, so stay tuned to more art soon. :]
It’s gonna be an awesome summer~~~
/post/50581759627/whats-with-all-those-empty-parallels-a-season-8 This so much! Because of everything, I don't have much hope they will actually end up together, but because of what you said and fallen Castiel, I say there is at least a bit of hope. Especially since he's fallen, because like I always thought, and Misha himself said that, being in a romantic relationship with an angel? Would not be easy.
You’re right; it wouldn’t be easy at all! I also want to point out this lovely remark made by Jensen as well. While everything going on was nothing short of ridiculous, Jensen was still able to make a serious point that actually holds some interesting back light. Especially in the second-to-last panel, he states:
“It’s a “supernatural” relationship, not really having any humanistic feelings of- [panda drops] …I’m so sorry”.
But even then, the entire response was talking about how because Cas was an angel, he could not understand how important he is to Dean, because he doesn’t feel those emotions as deeply. And it’s an interesting thing to say, because well, Jensen and Misha both knew, at that time, that Castiel was no longer an angel; he had his Grace taken and he had fallen. So to say the reason that Castiel didn’t understand Dean was the human/angel divide is very interesting. I almost feel as if they are saying underneath that “well Castiel ISN’T an angel now, so we’ll see how things play out from there.”
Next season is something I am definitely looking forward to. I am expecting awesome things, and a whole slew of new ideas on how to deal with this new problem and predicament of fallen angels and an “evil” Metatron.
When Carver said “three year plan”
apparently - and I say this because I, too, hadn’t fully understood that - he actually meant THREE YEAR PLAN
yes, the C plot was left hanging
there was no resolution of it in the end
because it WASN’T the end
many elements of the season didn’t have closure
because they WERE NOT SUPPOSED to come to full circle within the season
as I get it now, this was PART ONE OF THREE of a super-season
this has been a PSA
Basically the way I understand it is that with a three year plan he’s going to loosely follow the 3 Act Structure. For those unfamiliar the 3 Act Structure is a very common way to plot out a movie or novel.
This graph will help you visualize the linear plot line.
Each season follows a 3 Act Structure. Even individual episodes follow this same structure.
The first act is usually used for exposition, to establish the main characters, their relationships and the world they live in. Later in the first act, a dynamic, on-screen incident occurs that confronts the main character (the protagonist), whose attempts to deal with this incident lead to a second and more dramatic situation, known as the first turning point, which (a) signals the end of the first act, (b) ensures life will never be the same again for the protagonist and (c) raises a dramatic question that will be answered in the climax of the film. The dramatic question should be framed in terms of the protagonist’s call to action, (Will X recover the diamond? Will Y get the girl? Will Z capture the killer?). This is known as the inciting incident, or catalyst. As an example, the inciting incident in the 1972 film The Godfather is when Vito Corleone is shot, which occurs approximately 40 minutes into the film.
The second act, also referred to as “rising action”, typically depicts the protagonist’s attempt to resolve the problem initiated by the first turning point, only to find his- or herself in ever worsening situations. Part of the reason protagonists seem unable to resolve their problems is because they do not yet have the skills to deal with the forces of antagonismthat confront them. They must not only learn new skills but arrive at a higher sense of awareness of who they are and what they are capable of, in order to deal with their predicament, which in turn changes who they are. This is referred to as character development. This cannot be achieved alone and they are usually aided and abetted by mentors and co-protagonists.
The third act features the resolution of the story and its subplots. The climax, also known as the second turning point, is the scene or sequence in which the main tensions of the story are brought to their most intense point and the dramatic question answered, leaving the protagonist and other characters with a new sense of who they really are. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Three-act_structure).
According to this description last night’s episode closed the first act on this particular storyline. The Goal, Motivation, and Conflict have been established. The Goal is most likely to find out how to shut Heaven, help Sam recover and . The motivation for Dean is family and wanting to protect them. The Conflict is the fact that now they have not only demons to contend with but pissy stranded angels.
We as viewers now understand what is important to Dean, why it is urgent and what potential obstacles lie ahead.
The characters, Dean, Sam and Cas, have reached a point of no return. There is no going back to how life was last week. And this sets us up for Act 2 where more characterization happens along with attempts to resolve the problem that fail and ever worsening situations. Sounds like a lot to look forward to come 9.01.
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boredom-insanity-explosions replied to your post: response to your meta: cas also referenced…
Could you explain to me why you see the scene as “using himself as bait”? It seemed to me like Cas was just reading off things from the personal ads to see what the dude would prefer and not understanding the implications it would have.
“Using himself as bait” as in, I’m going to talk to this guy and see if I can get anything out of him that might indicate his “type”, or what he likes in bed, etc. It may have just been a silly thing of “oh Cas, not knowing proper human etiquette” however to me, and to the bartender, it sounded like Cas was hitting on him, saying something similar to “are you into light BDSM” and the man’s answer is “dude IT’S A TUESDAY AT 10 AM” meaning “do I look like I’m in the mood to you?” There’s really no other way to interpret that guy’s response except as “he thought Cas was hitting on him and he’s telling him he isn’t biting”.
It’s also interesting to note that the man doesn’t outright turn down Cas; he basically tells him “It’s way too early in the morning for that, buddy” which was nice of him, at the very least.
*remember this is all my own interpretation and speculation ofc*
smbeepee replied to your post: well, Sarasarai’s meta says that up until 8.22…
Sarasarai: I counted all of them. I would believe there are probably 9 cross-species ones though I don’t have a count of those.
Thanks for the fast reply! I figured you had, and I knew I was leaving out plenty of romances because they weren’t specific human/monster ones, haha. Sam/Amelia is a big one for example that I didn’t mention. They are a meta in and of themselves.
/crosses fingers for a Amelia return in Season 9. *w*
Cas totaly hit on the bartender; it's blatantly portrayed that way, and at first I was confused nd figured maybe Cas missed the human customs re. orientation-related issues, but then it turned out Cas's gaydar is much better than mine. =) I'm still confused though by him saying he's 'frineds with friends who do this all the time'...
I’m honestly betting it was Balthazar. He was someone who knew his way around when it came to getting the ladies. And we all know how Sebastian is. ;)
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